My Origin Story
Mom and Dad are two beautiful Catholics residing on the small sunny island of Mauritius in the middle of the Indian Ocean. On their 11th year of marriage, my parents were told by doctors that they could not conceive any children.
(My parents)In their struggle, my Father prayed and said to my mother: "God has a child for us, and when the time has come he will give us that child". My story began with a young married couple who surrendered their hopes and dreams to God.
I was born in China Mei-Zhou on the 26th of August 1993 ( right in the middle of the one-child policy of China).
I came to earth as an innocent baby girl of two poor village farmers. My biological parents already had two girls prior to having me. The eldest daughter was given to the grandmother and the second daughter was kept to provide financially for the family.
(Left to right: My first photo as a baby and a photo of my biological grandmother and sister)At my birth, there was a cloud of disappointment in the delivery room when the midwife revealed my gender. My biological parents had wished for a baby boy, but here I was, a girl. Not of my choice and nor of my making that I was female.
Deeply rooted in Chinese culture, it is believed that a male descendant brings prosperity. On top of being a born female, there was the one-child policy to be feared of. The odds were not in my favour.
According to China’s government, 400 million births were prevented during the one-child policy (which is a terrifying number of lives being killed at that time). Let alone the countless number of baby girls birthed in secret, aborted, given for adoption or left to die in orphanages, rivers, bins and streets.
Now as a grown-up adult, I believe that my gender should not have discriminated me against the chance to live, to be loved and accepted.
Rejection and shame were deeply present at my birth because of this horrible policy imposed on Chinese families. My biological parents were forced to give me away or they would have been heavily fined, forced into abortion or go through sterilization - These were atrocious years 1980-2015 in China.
As a growing kid, I had all these labels deeply rooted in my heart while growing up (unwanted, undesired, not loved, not cared for, rejected, orphan, lonely, not chosen, lack of identity, confused, different). It was hard to find my feet in the world.
This has caused me a lot of emotional damage and trauma as an individual.
As a kid and a teenager, I was very insecure about my identity, although I was brought up by loving, kind, and supportive parents. I was lonely and insecure in my heart; I always had this lingering thought, "Why?" at the back of my mind.
(The first time Mum and Dad visited me in China at the age of two. At the age of three I was officially adopted and became a citizen of Mauritius)Fast forward to the age of 19; I left Mauritius to study in Melbourne. My newfound freedom was incredible because of my rebellious years as a teenager; I was looking forward to a fresh start in life. I was determined to make things right in life, especially after all my bad decisions up to this point ( partying, clubbing, smoking, intoxicated drinking, bad relationships and bad influence.) I never took school seriously and I was just an average kid.
I think we all deserve a fresh start in life sometimes.
But even though I tried very hard to do life on my terms. I still had a deep sense of internal emptiness and brokenness. I studied hard in graphic design to get the best grades, got a full-time job, I worked myself to death. I was doing everything right by the world standards, I believed. Yet all these things still left me empty.
These "THINGS" are nothing compared to the fullness of life in Jesus.
The Spirit of God has made me; the breath of the Almighty gives me life. - Job 33:4
You will make known to me the path of life; In Your presence is fullness of joy; In Your right hand, there are pleasures forever. - Psalm 16:11
(OCF Easter Camp'15)On the 2nd of March 2015, my life took a drastic turn. I was invited to a Christian Easter Camp by a friend. During the night service, the pastor pointed me out of the crowd.
He said, "Tonight, you will receive a miracle." I did not believe him and I did not think I needed a miracle. But God saw me where I was in my heart. I was heartbroken, and I was carrying a lot of baggage over the years.
The pastor laid his hands over my head and prayed. Then the fire of the holy spirit filled my body; it was like a burning sensation from within. The experience was overwhelming. The holy spirit took hold of me, and I fell to the ground in peaceful surrender.
My past hurts, rejection, loneliness, unworthiness, shame, guilt were removed from my heart. The cloud of heaviness that was present in my heart lifted away like a veil. I felt utterly peaceful, free, loved, and joyful. It was indeed a miracle!
From that day forward, I decided to give my life to Jesus. I recommitted my life and got baptized as a Christian. Many of my friends and family thought I had gone stark mad. They thought I had joined a religious movement, a sect or a cult. But the truth is I had only decided to have a relationship with Jesus and recommit my life to him.
Since then I know that I am set free from my sins; he has healed my brokenness, has given me an identity and the fullness of life to its true abundance. I am redeemed, beloved, and part of his big family in Heaven. I still experience life difficulties like everyone else but at least I have God’s support and I know I can rely on him.
Now, if you read until this part - thank you! (this took me some time to write phew). Some of you might be thinking; this sounds too good to be true. Maybe you're thinking, this is another rubbish mumbo jumbo — but it is this the true account of my life I’ve lived this.
(Living life knowing that I am fully loved and redeemed by my heavenly father)Eternity is a very long time when we die, and even if I come to the end of my life and this is not true (which I know is true). At least I will have lived life to God's fullest purpose and intent for me on earth and in Heaven.
God has so much respect for your free will that he will never force you to believe in his son Jesus Christ. We always have choices to make in life. The decisions we make today are the building blocks to our future.
I am not trying to convince you with eloquent or persuasive words. I have nothing to win out of this but to see you in Heaven and have eternal life in Jesus Christ.
I have done the pros and cons of writing and publishing my story. I think there are more cons for me than pros.
I am putting myself out there by being vulnerable and weak.
People are probably going to think that I am crazy.
I will be criticised and rejected for my faith.
I am spending time and money for this cause.
All this is because I have experienced the redemptive power of the true living God. Jesus has changed me; I am one heck of a happy girl who won't shut up about him.
(In Dec 2019, I married my best friend Sean for eternity and we are pretty chuffed about our future) Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. - John 14:6
"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." - 1 John 1:9
”And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.” - Romans 8:28
If you feel like God is prompting you to follow Jesus and turn away from your old life. I would be more than happy to walk with you on this journey. I am just like any other ordinary girl/woman but with the grace of God would love to be part of your story!
Heaven is waiting for you.